Making Meanings.

O western wind, when wilt thou blow

The small rain down can rain!

Christ, if love were in my arms

And I in my bed agian!

-Anonymous, 5th Century poet

Fragmentary five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes.

The clock says 5:20 am. And Davao is still catching some Z's.

I woke up early, about a few minutes ago, since I fell asleep last night while waiting for Mikko to finish his business and then I eventually forgot to turn off the laptop. I then thought of fire, or worst, getting an expensive bill for our electricity.

Since my Quantitative Inorganic Analysis class starts at 7am, I've been trying to kill time by just updating a few pages in the internet. Friendster, multiply, etc. - the common internet sites that I usually go just to establish some ties to my not-so-distant friends. I finally know how to spell boredom.

But I remember that I have a program called Limewire, "The Fastest File Sharing Program on the Planet" plus computer viruses too! Haha. So my goal: search/ download the song Seasons of Love, the most celebrated song from the Broadway musical Rent, written and composed by Jonathan Larson.

Seasons of Love is a great song, wonderful melody and lyrics. Listen!

Think I'll be late for my first class, go to go!

Sa mga bumati at 'di bumati. [Kaarawan]

Ito ang listahan ng mga taong bumati, kasama na ang kanilang mensahe:

JUNE 17, 2008.
The day before.

Ate Ivyhoneylou: happy bday! =)

Janice Javerle (8:27am): dan!!! birthdaynimo ugma!!!
excited naku kay sakto sa centennial celebration imong bday!!!
ai nalagot ko dli ako ang fist nag great sa imo, naunahan pa jud ko!!!
cgeh lng ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Dan!!!

Katrina Cabahug (11:04am): hey. hapi burstday! hahaha.
u r d dancing queen
young and sweet
only seventeen.:):):)

Kate Ong (12:44pm): waa.
jordan.
mg greeet na lng co daan sa imo.
happy birthday!!!!
dpt naa'y feelings imng pgbsa.
wahaha.
panlibre pg mgkta ta.
kaon dghn ky payat lng japon ka.
wahaha.
amping.

Friche Rabaya (1:06pm):bday nimo ugma..
so happy birthday!. :)

Janie Vieve Fonatanilla (2:04pm):oOie
manlibre jud kag
ngyopAo?!wEe

haha

Heberdei dAn!!!

Rianne (6:26pm): weeee, ey jordan, 'PY BERTDei!!!!
another year of fun! enjoy your special day...!!
happy sleeping..

Charmayne Zilmar (9:09pm): Elow jordan! Advans diay hapi bday! Bc wla n q load ugma. Hehe. H0pe u 2 hav a day ugma w/ many beautfl m0ments. M0r bdays 2 cum! Be a beter man... smyl olways!

JUNE 18, 2008.
The not-so big day. 17 and not 18.

Judymae Salubre (3:11am): Jordan.hapi bday.-judymae.

Rita Pombo (4:34am): Hapi Birthday, nak! May u continue to be a good son, a brother to ur sister, a grandson to ur lola n lolo, and a good citizen of d country! May all ur dreams come true! And may u be in good health always! We love u nak!

Arianne Pombo (5:42 am): Dan, aryan ni. Iagi ang laptop dri be. Plz dan? Plz? Ui, hapi bday!

Stephanie Suarez (5:51 am): Hapi bday jordan hehehe God bless you!

Rianne (6:06 am): Oh, it's the...


*boom!*
*splash2x*
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
jordan!..my friend (acr0s d m0untains& seas), my listener, my txtreader! (my qu0te f0rwarder!hehe!)

Jollie Cruzado (6:19 am):pi birtdei dan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Katrina Cabahug (6:24 am): Hey.c: hapi burstday! grit npd q. nkitxt ra q saqng sis.haha. gow. God bles. -katrina. c;

Isiah Catarman (7:08 am): Hapi bday dan!

Rae Anne Ducut (7:12 am): Dear frnd, happy birthday!!! U'r 17, smart, cynical and l0vely. Haha. U'r a yr 0lder and u'v REALLY gr0wn up. Hapi hapi! I love you! God bless!

Ate Rus (7:59 am): Hapy bday mg.hod!!!!

Dahren (8:35 am):

_uy d0d!hapi hapi bday!

Mia Vergara (9:58 am): HaPpY BiRtHdAy dAn!! Hope you'll rceive d greatest gift from God. Enjoy! Hapi bday :p

Choco (11:06am): hapu bday yah! hehe.. h0pe 2 c u s0on.. be an inspirati0n 2 others always.. GBU! mwah,mwah.,

Judymae Salubre (11:51 am): hapi hell na jud diay.ang libre.

Charrie Parilla (12:13 pm): malipayong adlaw sa imung pagkatawo..
unta malpayon ka karon.. ug labaw na ko kay manlibre
man ka diba?diba?diba? hahaa..

Elybelle Sison (12:42 pm):peee bet die!

hahaha...legal na ka,noh?

Ronnic Bacaron (1:15 pm): happy birthday friend!.. naunsa mana imong nawong. haha.. naka drugs ka ana? ayaw pud palabi ky ma overdose ka ana. hehehe...
hoy bertos.. wlay party..? hehe..
gb.

Katrina Cabahug (1:17 pm): gior than foam boo.
hala ka woi. kapangit. haha.

murag 4th tym na nko ni ug greet sa imo.
habertday npud. haha. babayuu!!!

Janice Javerle (2:16 pm): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!hahaha

Aljohn (2:29 pm): hapi bertdei

Franco Baynosa (2:50 pm): (insert GIF) Happy Birthday!

Tiguwang na ta!!!

Gabrielle Sagaral (4:17 pm): louis jordan bertos pombo! Maligayang pgbati sa iyong kaarawan! Eck. Tagalog. PI BURTDEHH. Wers d partey?

Marcius Isip (4:36 pm):

happy bday dan..sunod diri uy. hulat kang rae ann. lingaw pud btaw ang food tech, ur choice. may u have more bdays to come, bright btaw ka dan, dugay pa imong life.:}/ingats, regards ko ila alvin.:}makamiss kay lingaw kaayo mu, seryoso kaayo dri.:}

Friche Rabaya (5:36 pm): JORDAN.KARON.

happy birthday!.

dapat gud kay lechon baboy ang gidala sa imong mama..
para dili ko magsisi na niuli na ko.

nibalik gud mig kanluran ni mikki.
kay nibalik man ang jip.
tos nagtransfer mi ug jip.
nagmintal dayon.

bow.

happy 17th!. :D

Crista Jane (5:37 pm): HAPPY BIRTHDAY......

Marianne (5:43 pm):

hey. hey. hey.....pibertdey te yey! =)

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hoi. happy happy birthday. tinext na kita ah. i tried to call you pero out of reach ka so bahala ka na. haha. anyway, i wish you all the best. ilang taon ka na ba? i'm sure gurang ka na. so sana magmature ka na rin. haha.

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alam ko marami nang nakabati sa'yo at walang difference kung hindi kita batiin today, but i did greet you, so i hope that that made a difference.

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this is my longest message for you dahil this is your special day. and of course, dahil you are special to me in some ways i don't know. anyway, i hope that you're happy and will be happy in the coming years of your life. i know one day we'll meet and i'm looking forward to that day. happy birthday again! 'yun lang. tata for now! mwah! =)

Marianne (5:51 pm): happy birthday manong! i sent you a longer greeting sa message. natanggap mo ba? ilang beses ko kasing sinend eh hindi naman mag-appear 'yung confirmation na nasend na siya. so anyway. heypibertdey te yey! tc always! god bless. sana lagi kang masaya.

Lenin Vargas (5:55 pm): .jordanee.. Wa jd tka nkita 2day. Hahaha. MgGrit qg happy birthday. Tiguwang! Hahaha.

Mikhail Young (8:12 pm): oi! hapi birthday! libre oi!

Frenzess (8:35 pm): (insert GIF)

Andrew (8:38 pm): (insert GIF)

Kathleen Tubera (10:01 pm): hapeee birthday jordan!
debut na nimo noh? hehe..

Noemi Odan (10:53 pm): apee apee birtdei dan! C:

wix u all d hapiness in lyf. C:

aq unta last nggreet uie. ma0 man gud na aqng plan. amb0t lng pud nganu. hahaha. bsta. hehe. kabertdei pud nimu c paul. tama! na'reciv nimu ang greetings ni gabz? basig unya2 pa 2. bsta kami last mggreet sa imu. amping. hapee b0rnday napud! C:

Aubrey Matuguinas (11:27 pm): happy birthday dan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bromart:Hi, happy birthday!!! May you have more wonderful years to come. God bless.

Katrine Petines: where the bloody hell are my pictures????
but since it's your birthday, i will try to suppress the impulse to murder you in front of Lola Tacing. hahaha
HAPPY BIRD DAY, JORDAN.
kaon!

Mitchell Toleco: jordan, happy birthday

JUNE 19, 2008.
Naku.

Carla Costillas (10:01 am): hui jordan.
belated hapi bornday.
hehe..
sori la ko kagrit gahapon kay wala koi load.
libre ha.
lamat dan!!!!!

Hershey Banagua (10:22 am): Dan, belated hapi bday...hehehe..

Gabee Deseo (10:49 am): haPi bUrtdi!!!!!!!!!

Bejay Simogan (12:06 pm):

happy birthday =)

Kier (1:53 pm): hi jordan!!!

super belated apee verthdei!!!

im wishing you of gud life and wealthy health!

have faith!mwahugs!

Antonette Agleham (2:26 pm): Jordan, pasenxa na. I was sick. Nwei, belated hapi bday. :D

Lenin Vargas (2:55 pm): hahaha!!! wlay buotay jordanee..
belated hapi bday!
bata pa man d.i ka ui.. :)

Chersyl Robles (4:40 pm): aw bilated hapi burtdei d i!! hihi
oie pahiram beh sa tc 7?
cge pls..gow mghatag ko og
gift sa imu...hihi

Michael Lacsamana (5:20 pm): (insert GIF)
for the record, happy birthday roomie! best wishes ;)

Mikeeee: ikaw pala ang soulmate ni diane!!!...habee berday sayo!..hihi

June 20, 2008.
Ibang level.

Ram Dolom (12:09am): happy birthday madam.

unta mag-asenso na ka sa imong kinabuhi...

Sa mga nagtataka kung ba't hindi nila nakita ang kanilang pangalan: EITHER personal ninyo akong ginreet OR, hindi kaayo naggreet. alam nyo na yun. salamat.

haha.

Salamatski sa lahat!



P.S. Soulmate. Lahig level imo kay naa kay own entry jud.haha.

Not a question of vanity. (The Beatles theme?)

Event:

So ano ang susuutin ko? Help.

Tonight I Can Write by Pablo Neruda.

Tonight I Can Write

by Pablo Neruda

translated by W.S. Merwin

Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

______________________________________________________________________________

Sue me then.

Summery summertime.

April 06 – June 04, 2008.

Appendectomy and the confinement issues.

April 11-16.

San Pedro Hospital, Davao City

It was my first time off after working for four strenuous days (before) of my first summer job/ first job. My objectives for that day were to get SSS number for my work (I’m still 16 and I don’t why the company where I used to work ordered me to get SSS number), and to meet Rae Anne. After accomplishing these things, I managed to get home early, 8 p.m., since I already felt some unpleasant events happening inside my body. I waited for my mother that at that time, was still on her way home from Cagayan de Oro City. I told my other family members about the pain that I felt, but they were too busy watching the show Avatar: The Last Airbender. And so I ended sleeping while waiting for my dear mom and enduring the pain. She later arrived on 11 o’clock in the evening; I waited for her for many hours and considering the increasing pain that I felt during those moments. After series of arguments, I was then rushed to San Pedro Hospital, and later confined to death.

I underwent an operation called appendectomy, costing us Php **,***. It wasn’t a painful experience actually (Thank God I didn’t suffer; unlike the guy in the movie Awake experienced); I just slept for a few hours and woke up hungry. What I feared most before I was operated was to suffer malpractice (I’d rather discuss malpractice in my next entries). I thought of I’ll-be-dead-before-I-wake-up imaginations, and etc. But, my mother removed these fears I felt through her sincere love and care. (I thank my mother) for she was really there for me throughout my stay in the hospital (Well, that’s what mothers are.). My recovery was quite gradual, yet my mom’s efforts were really helping me all throughout the recovery period.

Summer Job.

April 07 – 10/April 29 – May 28.

Natasha – Davao Branch, Davao City

Only a few people know this.

I summer jobbed in Natasha (Vivendi Corporation) with a job title as Sales Staff (My job is too complicated and I’d like to just limit the description to sales staff). The daily rate was Php 224.00, but the salary’s given every 2^nd and 4^th Fridays of the month. For this job, I only received two ‘givs’ (I don’t know the spelling but they say it’s a colloquial term for salary or what). The net amount (less the withholding tax) that I usually receive is at least Php 3,500 (OTs will overdo the math).

What I’ve noticed about working is that, for my case, you’ll really find yourself bending, flexing and stuffs just to adjust or adapt to our working environment. When you work, you really need to work hard just to earn money. You need to be ‘madiskarte’, be a schizo, and give your best. What’s funny is that you always of money; money, money, money.

But sometimes, working hard isn’t really the key to earn. I’ve noticed that some of my workmates do little work but still they earn big amount of money. I am not belittling my workmates; it’s just I never imagined that that mentality is present even in work. I used to see that in school.

What’s more disheartening? Some people work hard to earn college degrees only to find out that even their work-bosses don’t have any college degree. Demoralizing. Those that should be having white-collared/pink-collared jobs earn blue-collared jobs and vice versa.

Samal Outing.

May 31 – June1.

Hagimit Falls: Kaliguan sa Lasang/Sunrise Beach Resort, Canibad, Aundanao, Island Garden City of Samal

The most anticipated event of my entire summertime. Let this be the next entry.

See the pictures and feel what we felt.

Rae Anne’s departure. Diane’s arrival and later, departure.

Summer 2008.

From Davao City to Quezon City (Common point)

My two greatest and closest friends left me. I expected this. I already knew before that Rae’d be following Diane. Well, I’m happy for Rae. I know that Rae’s dream is to graduate in UPD. She worked hard to get a good academic ranking in UPMin to assist her in her application to BAJourn. For my soulmate, Diane, I thank her for coming home this summer, though for a short time only. Ok. So much for the dramatic monologue; not a good place actually.

GPOA for the monkey business.

Summer 2008.

Davao City

Coming soon in theatres near you.

And solitary confinement again.

Plus the whatnots: the disappearances of some members of the DFSC, dislocation of Janice Javerle’s knee, the so-called public speaking competition, my cyber-lie-low, disappearances again of some of my BSFT classmates, and start of enrolment.

April 06 – June 04, 2008. The above-mentioned events happened during the 60 days of my existence.

I think I’ve had enough of these summer experiences.

Shoot. Methinks I just missed my laptop so much that’s why I’m making this stupid entry. Falalalalala.